[UUPoly-L] Need help with jealousy

["JennyLynn Oh" <jennylynn.oh@gmail.com>]

Is anyone else out there just "slightly" poly?  Let me elaborate...I'm
married, and we decided to make it an open marriage about a  year ago.  The
reason was, I'm interested in bdsm but my husband is not, so in order to
have my needs met, I'm free to find a partner that engages in bdsm with me.
I love my husband, and I love my Master, although in very different ways.  I
also sense that I have no need for partners beyond what I have.

Currently, my Master lives about an hour away, in Austin, but this Saturday
he's flying to Seattle to start a new job.  He'll fly back occasionally, and
I'll visit him as often as we can manage, but our time together will
obviously be limited from here on out.  My Master is also poly, but
differently than me.  He said that he may have play partners in Seattle,
maybe another sub, whatever comes his way that meets his needs.

This absolutely terrifies me.  I feel that it's only a matter of time before
I'm replaced and forgotten.  The thought of my Master with another woman
scares me to no end.  I worry about him comparing me to someone else and I
just know that I'll come up short.  He's assured me that the slice of his
life that I occupy is mine and can't be taken away.  I also know that
because of our dynamic, I can't control what he does (nor would I want to).
He has a high sex drive, and I wouldn't want him to be out there and not
getting his needs met.  And apart from sex, I don't want him to be lonely--I
want him to have companionship and friends.  But....I'm just so scared.  I
worry that the first time he's with someone, I'll be a wreck knowing that
he's holding someone else in his arms.

Can anyone offer some advice about how to deal with jealousy like this?  Any
good books to read?  Anything?

Thanks in advance
Jen